I Will Never Be That Girl

It's just not in the cards. I will never be that girl who decides that it's time for (another) baby and within a reasonable time period gets pregnant. I will never just "stop preventing" and hope for the best.

Even when my baby comes someday, he or she will probably be the only one. I'm not sure I could do this again. I'm sure with time, some of the yucky-ness will fade, time does heal a great number of wounds.

I will never be that girl who announces her pregnancy on f.b. the moment she finds out, or even at the end of the first trimester. At this point, I think I've decided against posting it on there at all, not directly anyway.

Two more announcements just in the last 2 days. It shouldn't be this hard to see it. My friends deserve their babies just as much as I do mine. I'm not resentful towards them, just frustrated by my situation.

I know a lot of it is my own fear that Friday will not be a good day. But I promised to stay positive. So with that...

I am pregnant.

I am pregnant.

I am pregnant.

I am pregnant.

I am pregnant.

I am pregnant.

Too bad it doesn't work to just will it into being true.