Saturday, February 13, 2010

Suffocation

I can't breathe.
I feel as if someone is sitting on my chest and claiming every breath.
The sadness, pain, hurt, disappointment and despair are almost physically overwhelming.

IUI#2 = bust

12dpiui, AF arrived at about 4 this afternoon.

For those of you who said after #1, it would be the hardest. In my case that just wasn't true. This is just twice as hard.

Maybe because #3 is the end of the line. I can't go there yet, but it weighs heavily on my heart.

The tears are flowing freely, as there is no point in stopping them. I really don't have the strength tonight to try.

Tomorrow will be better, it has to be.

Infertility is my cross to bear and tonight I am longing for someone else to carry it for me.

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14 comments:

  1. Oh man. I'm so sorry. I was really hoping for you. I wish I could make it better. I can only imagine how I would feel if/when IVF fails for me. I'm so sorry. (((hugs)))

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  2. I am so sorry. This sucks. I hope tomorrow is at least 1% better than today.

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  3. I am so so sorry Alison. You're in my thoughts.

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  4. I am so very sorry! I wish there were words that could make it easier for you. Many P&PTs to you!!

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  5. I'm so sorry this cycle didn't work. I hope you're having a better day today.

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  6. I am so sorry, Alison. Thinking of you.

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  7. I am so so sorry Alison. Tons of positive thoughts and prayers and hugs.

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  8. Alison, I'm so sorry you're going through this. I wish there were something more I could say. (((HUGS)))

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  9. Alison, I am so sorry. You're in my thoughts and prayers.

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  10. I'm so sorry, Alison. This just stinks.

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  11. Oh Ali! I'm so sorry I missed this! My computer has been on the fritz and I've been wondering for the past two days! I'm so sorry sweetie. Please let me know if you need anything! Love you

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