Monday, January 4, 2010

PUPO?

Is it weird that I feel like a fraud?

I've actually gone through with the IUI... I *could* in theory be pregnant.

And I feel like it isn't real at all.

Of course, there's the little voice in my head, that says that it probably isn't, because this probably didn't work today. It keeps repeating to me the daunting stats that aren't in my favor.

The other voice in my head keeps singing, "You are pregnant 'til proven otherwise!"

Unfortunately, the doubting voice is much more booming and louder, so I'm much more pessimistic tonight than I was this morning. I'm guessing this is normal?

Oh, and there will be 19 (that's right - NINETEEN) days of speculation. Because I follow the rules. And the rules say to test on CD32 (January 23) and call my RE's office with the results. That is, if I haven't seen AF. I will state for the record, my longest confirmed "O" cycle was 30 days (the 4 out of the 5 previous C!omid cycles were 30 days each).

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13 comments:

  1. Good luck! I hope this is it for you.

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  2. Crossing everything that this is it for you!

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  3. You are much stronger than I if you can wait 19 days! GL!!

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  4. 19 days? Are you freaking serious? If I mail you some sticks in the mean time will you pee on them? Kidding of course... kind of ;-).

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  5. Good grief ... 19 days is torture! I truly do believe you are PUPO even with an IUI :)
    Sending you love ...

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  6. Good luck!!

    You are so strong to go so long!

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  7. There is no way I could wait 19 days! Wow, you are more of a rule follower than I am. Best of luck to you! Snuggle in vibes coming your way!

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  8. I'm keeping everything thing crossed that this is it for you. BUT come on now you can't REALLY make us wait 19 days.....right? :)

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  9. 19 days is soooo long, but as we've seen from your no POAS policy, you're as patient as they come. All my fingers and toes are crossed for you! I hope this is *it.*

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  10. While I've not been through IUI or IVF before, it seems to me that it's normal to "not feel real" or to be cautious with the hope and excitement. After unsuccessfully TTC, it's only natural. Perhaps as the days pass you will begin to feel as though this really could be it!

    19 days though?! Why so long? That just seems mean. :) Personally I would not be able to wait that long, but more power to you if you can hold off!

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  11. Crossing everything imaginable that you are indeed preggo!! :)

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  12. Wow 19 days is a long time!

    Fellow dIUI'er here. Just thought I'd offer send you my best wishes!

    Crossing everything for you.

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  13. Wishing you lots of good luck!! Hoping and praying you see that positive in 19 days!

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